the days you left us

天气: 晴朗心情: 高兴Again I went to your office, the great crystal ball still there , you told me the other day that you could see the future through the ball. The book about Maya reads that crystal has the power to remember all the things. If the crystal ball has energy, I believe that it is because it has stood by your side for many many years and you are full of magnetic field and pass to the energy to the ball.
I wish I could hold the ball and see the future. But I did not. I prefer not to touch everything you have ever used cause I still get some feel that you will be back here soon.
I don’t like myself in this sorrow mood as if you have been passed away. I try to keep myself happy and pretend that everything is still normal. But could I？

The next day I have to format your computer harddisk clear everything you left and I wish I could do it after office hours when the others are not here, so that they can not see smoke gets into my eyes.

I try to find any imprint you’ve left and found your words on a piece of paper on the cabinet:
I am not 50~, I am 18 with 32 years of experience!

I can not stay in your office any more and escaped immediately.