Where is my way, my God?

天气: 晴朗心情: 平静 I was told that i was no longer a student but a worker at night yesterday, and finally I know the reason why they wouldn't like to talk with me any more, cause I seem like so naive, so simple,that deviate from the reality so much. They tried to help me, but failed at last, cause I always forgot how to do in the way they told me many times before. If I still do act in this way, I may lose all completely. What the company needs is the proper people, she should be mature and could control her motion and others. In one word, just to be the saponaceous and sometimes stiff. I don't like to live on such style, cause that would make me feel uneasy.
Oh, my God! Pls tell me what should I do? Should I live in that way which would make me feel i am living in the hell?
I have worked for two months now, and often feel unhappy, My God,could you please be so kind and come to help me? or a hint in my dream is ok.ok???
MY GOD, PLEASE HELP ME! I NEED YOUR HELP SO MUCH!